In the Beginning ~ there was darkness

Before any 'thing' ever existed, Infinity tried to balance

itself with Eternity.

From the midst of that Balance, emerged an anomaly called "I" -

"I stand before the Gates of Heaven, behind me is all that there ever was"

- Infinity became Eternity in the One Being.

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When I think about infinity, I think about Space. I'm floating in Space, I feel buoyant. Everything around me is dark, but somewhere, I sense there is light. I look in the distance, I see a horizon, and beyond that, very faintly ~ I see starlight.

Space exists because the Universe exists. To imagine ourselves inside the darkness, before the Universe, we get a totally different picture. There is no space, no horizon, and no light, only blackness. I feel like I'm totally surrounded. I'm not floating. If I lie very still I'm O.K., but if I try to move, it feels like there's a blanket over me, and if I try to stand up, I can't. Why is that?

Is my imagination playing tricks on me, or is there some hidden meaning, in the absence of Space, which needs rethinking? I get the feeling it's got something to do with up and down (space) not coming into existence yet.

The minute we get rid of the idea of space, the darkness becomes blackness. Space disappears and the blackness takes over. But if it's not space, then what is darkness? Is it nothing? We know it's not nothing, because otherwise where would Creation have come from? What is it that makes the darkness different from Space?

Some scientists say that mass comes from something they call infinite density, the opposite of infinite expanse ~ a point with infinite thickness. But where did the dense spot originate? Did the darkness gather up all it’s blackness, and focalize a point of infinite density? If so, then everything surrounding that point must be thinner than it originally was; thinner than nothing, and what made it focalize in the first place?

Scientists theorized the existence of a ‘bond’ in the blackness when they made that statement ~ The only way that infinite density could have come about is if it was bonded to the rest of the blackness ~ In which case, there must be something connecting infinite expanse to infinite density ~ But what is ‘it’?

In the Beginning there was darkness. I'm willing to bet, that beyond the creative universe, the darkness is still infinite. I kind of accept the idea of infinite density balancing out infinite expanse, because I've always believed that paradox is the first rule (nothing can exist by itself, even nothing). It appears there is something out there, which doesn't allow for an imbalance. Something must have been governing whatever came, but what was ‘it’?

When we ask that question ‘it’ brings Awareness into the picture ~ did awareness, come about before the Big bang, or has it always been around? According to Genesis, it came about before the Beginning. If so, where did it come from, and how did it develop into the state of awareness that it's in today?

If we split Infinity into its subjective and objective attributes, the objective tense of Infinity can't be real; it can only be a concept, because we can't step outside Infinity ~ So it’s possible that there’s something about infinity that’s subjective ~ Something that became Aware ~ Something that came to Light?

In terms of color, the opposite of darkness is Light. The first point of awareness could have been a form of Light. However, Light can't just come out of nothing, there must have been a degree of predetermination in it's Coming ~ Something must have happened to precipitate Light ~ was it the Big bang, or was it the Creator?

We need to question what ‘it’ was that generated Light ~ If it was a form of Awareness, it must have been around before the Beginning, because in the Beginning God separated the darkness from the Light. It would appear that Light came from out of the darkness.

But how can darkness precipitate Light? While struggling with the idea, I had the following dream ~

I dreamt I was trying to bite into a black box. It had a nipple on top. I thought it was candy. I had a bit of the nipple in my mouth, when someone asked, "Are you eating that?" I said, "Yeah, isn't it edible? I think there's candy inside." They laughed, "there's no candy in there, it's liquid cheese." I looked, and saw that the rest of the nipple was plugged with something porous, black like charcoal, and it tasted unpleasant.

I went over my notes. Liquid cheese, the Universe started from liquid cheese ~ a fermentation, a culture? Is the darkness like a culture? There's something I’m missing here. Why did the charcoal in my dream taste unpleasant, and how can darkness possibly possess culture? (Potential is a better word).

In my dream the darkness was a ‘black box’. When I tried to separate it, bite some of it off, it tasted unpleasant. So perhaps it can’t be separated (‘It’ reacts when separated?). The ‘black box’ on the other hand, implies that darkness can be confined. The fact that the charcoal was porous could mean it’s interconnected somehow ~ I finally came to the conclusion that my dream was trying to tell me that darkness has Medium.

And the box I think means, that this Medium contains a possibility ~ Put that into the context of Infinity, and the possibility becomes Eternity. It’s possible that Eternity came about when the Infinite Medium tried to come to a point ~ balance itself.

From what we’ve heard about Eternity, it’s something that exists in the Realm of the Creator. So let’s try and look at ‘it’ in personal terms ~ If awareness did come from some kind of Infinite Bonding Medium; we’ll have to try and figure out how that Medium could possibly have precipitated a ‘point’ of awareness ~ develop a sense of self in the ongoing Medium.

We can get to that ‘point’ by asking ourselves a personal question ~ How would a ‘little blackness’ feel inside the Total Blackness ~ the Whole Medium?

Because of the fact that the Medium is Infinite, any 'part' of that totality would feel all alone, separated, because it is infinitely surrounded. We know that an Individual cannot be infinite, because we know that a singularity has boundaries. Hence, anything that can be identified within that Medium would have to have boundaries ~ And as a result of those boundaries, it would have a primitive ‘sense of being’.

Why?

Because of the Relationship between One and infinity ~ Relationship? What relationship?

The most primitive life forms have stimulus. ‘It’ reacts to touch therefore ‘it’ is said to be alive. In terms of the Infinite Bonding Medium, any ‘thing’ that can be identified within that Medium will develop stimulus (because the Medium is on-going) ~‘it’ is sensitive to the surrounding Medium, because ‘it’ is at-one with the medium.

Stimulus is a reaction that happens to ‘it’ when the on-going totality reacts with ‘it’. Stimulus defines the boundaries of the ‘little blackness’, because that’s where the ‘reaction’ is happening.

What Reaction?

Let’s say that the ‘little blackness’ was a circle, a ring of blacker blackness. However, because the infinite Medium is on-going and three-dimensional ‘it’ couldn’t maintain ‘its’ borders and the rings were torn apart. (It is at this point that ‘it’ could have felt something). Think of it as a pleasant electrical shock.

So what we have now is Chaos ~ bits of glowing ‘wigglies’ roiling around everywhere, much like turbulent water ~ Why glowing? Because that’s where the reaction is happening, at their ends ~ I think that’s how the transcendent Light of Infinity came about and spread – ‘it’ liked the sensation.

So how did ‘it’ finally manage to contain its Self? According to the Kabala ‘it’ needed a Vessel ~ something identifiable and stable.

How did that happened?

We know that a stable vessel needs to be three-dimensional. What if three dimensions came from two, and two dimensions came from one? If so, how did one dimension become three-dimensional?

A line could become a surface, and a surface could rise and become three-dimensional. But what’s initiating ‘it’s direction?

Back to square one. We could go on forever trying to explain how ‘it’ came into Being; eventually we’d have to accept that ‘it’ had (a) sense (of direction). The first ‘thing’ that came into existence wasn’t a thing ~ it was a point of awareness ~ a ‘point’ with a sense of self.

I talk about points but they're not really things yet, no-thing has broken away from the Medium. Think of the point as a non-point ~ Stare into infinity with your mind's eye, imagine a non-point coming into existence ~ suddenly a little glowing speck appears ~ it's coming towards you, it passes through you. Now look behind the speck, doesn't it seem like it's got a shadow of a tail. The speck appears from nowhere, but it’s tail stretches back through the infinite medium ~ I think that’s what generates Awareness ~ a mysterious bond in Nature that connects us to Infinity ~ the Awareness of Infinity ~ it’s not stuff it’s a sense.

It’s possible that this ‘sense’ was responsible for generating a primitive sort of Identity, simply because ‘it’ was/is infinite ~ But now we have to wonder how the ‘wigglies’ knew which direction to move in?

So here we go again, how did ‘it’ develop perception?

What is a perceiver? A perceiver is some one who can see, right? What is seeing? Seeing in its purest sense is a reflection of some thing coming back on itself ~ like a mirror. But a Perceiver is also someone who is aware of its Self? How can a mirror become aware of its Self?

Well lets see, think of that little twisting border again ~ it sees a mirror, not just any mirror, it so happens it comes up inside a giant crystalline ~ shiny triangles, of stretched out Medium, spreading out in all directions. What is ‘it’ seeing? It's seeing its Self, reflecting against the surfaces of the crystalline.

OK turn that thought around now. Say that the Crystalline formed first. What would the crystalline experience if it were being stimulated by Infinity? A number of words come to mind ~ ecstasy ~ illumination ~ and probably a keen sense of direction ~ perception.

A primitive form of Awareness could have developed inside the Crystalline because ‘it’ had access to infinity ~ But how did the crystalline form?

Think about those bits of borders for a minute ~ after billions of years of wiggling around, some of the borders could have developed polarity and ‘joined’ up ~ a wiggle to the left, a wiggle to the right; a wiggle up and down.

‘It’ became ecstatic, because ‘it’ was able to experience a release from Chaos ~ in that instant, ‘it’ spread across the Medium ~ ‘it’ formed a line.

And because ‘it’ didn’t have a surrounding boundary; ‘it’ raced towards Infinity (it’s still racing towards infinity). Order became the release from Chaos.

This is how the line became ‘on going’ ~ a part of Him is still racing towards infinity ~ in a sense, the line is ejaculating. Every Human feeling has a Universal source.

In its purest sense, that’s what Medium is ~ it’s a feeling of Oneness ness. Throughout physical reality that oneness ness is identifiable. However, before any ‘thing’ existed the oneness ness was not identifiable. You could think of the original (unidentifiable) oneness ness as the spaces between the atoms (the Medium that the atoms sit in) and the atoms as the reality that ‘came’ into existence later. Hence, the original oneness ness supports all of creation ~ ‘it’ is the unidentifiable ‘spirit’ (Medium) that binds us all ~ and continues to do so.

~ When the line couldn’t reach infinity, I think it started to spread out sideways ~ I’m not sure how that happened, it could have formed a Matrix (squares within squares) or maybe something else.

Some of the recent crop circles seem to suggest that a fractal formed from the line ~

(On July 23rd 1997 a Koch fractal appeared in the fields of Silbury Hill in England ~ And the following year, a reverse version appeared on Hackpen Hill. (This fractal started from a straight line (a crack?) ~ but it can go on forever ~ It can keep growing into Infinity)

~ It couldn’t reach infinity so it started to stretch out sideways and became a Surface. The surface couldn't reach Infinity either, so it started to expand up into the third dimension ~ Note the‘wigglies’ surrounding ‘its’ perimeter.

The crop formation on the left, is a flat version of an octacahedron ~You need to fold it to make a 3 Dimensional image. (They couldn’t make a 3 Dimensional image, unless they tore the farmers haystack apart could they?)

~ What do you think happened after the fractal became 3 dimensional?