Desire

The Native people were aware of the split between hemispheres long before we came on the scene. If you look closely at Native art, many of their drawings and carvings, describe that split - Two opposing characters pulling against each other, within a Larger Being, expressing desire.

Desire is a powerful force, which you might say, runs up and down in our bodies, and which effectively keeps the two hemispheres separated. Desire is also the motivating push or pull, which urges us to explore. The whole process is kept functioning because of the apple of desire.

Desire has a unique quality to it. It seems to extend ever upward into infinity, because there are always more exciting peaks to explore. But on the down side it comes from a bottomless pit. It is a power that increases from a grosser to a finer medium, and it flows up and down in our bodies through our hearts.

In fact it is the heart that is the purifier of desire. And if it isn't functioning, then we can have all kinds of trouble, because the love, which comes from our hearts, becomes stuck in our lower regions. If the heart isn't purifying, we can never experience the finer aspects of this ultimate power.

It is Desire that drives us, and it's the ‘apple’ that Eve gave to Adam that’s responsible for separating our hearts from our minds. The purpose of which was, in that very first act, to develop our Conscience. We are but incarnations of the Creator - our Larger Being.

The Creator’s hemispheres influence our personal hemispheres; our feelings originate from His feminine ‘side’ and our will from His male ‘side’.

Throughout Creation the Mother is the bonding reality, and the Father is the initiating reality. The Father is external and the Mother is internal. In terms of primary Universal modes, the Source is whole, and we the parts, make up that Whole. (The Creator comprises all of Creation, and we the parts, are bonded to Him through the Eternal Light).

Because there is a split between our feelings and our thoughts, our awareness is split into a subjective and an objective ‘side’. Most people are dominant in either one side or the other; hence they are a little unbalanced. It is this split between our hearts and our minds, which creates the struggle, both within us, and between us. It is the separation or gap between our feelings and our thoughts, which becomes the reason for our struggle.

I think this is how the Creator set it up:

The above diagram is a crude illustration of how the Creator might have incorporated certain important aspects of Himself into us. He incorporated all the Characteristics and Conditions of Himself into us in such a way that each Universal Characteristic could find a place in our psyche. In a sense, He created a kind of spiritual skeleton for us, which allowed Him to incorporate His Conditions into ours. The "I" of consciousness originates in our mind, and our feelings are connected to our hearts. In a way, we're all connected to each other through our spiritual ‘skeletons’ because it is identical to the Creator’s.

Our thoughts and our feeling are worlds in themselves, and if it weren’t for the gap between them, we wouldn’t have the desire to grow. (The struggle for individuality cannot have a basis for growth). If we can come to learn which side is dominant in our lives, perhaps we can begin to realign ourselves with the rest of the Universe.

It helps if we can understand a little more about the role of subjectivity and objectivity, and rationality and intuition. Usually objectivity and rationality go together, and subjectivity and intuition go together. The body has a knowing all its own, and the mind needs to conceptualize to stay alert. The thinkers usually lack in feeling, and the feelers usually lack in thinking. But not always, some people seem to have a nice blend of both.

Because we live in a technological society, where linear thinking predominates, there is a tendency for all of us to be overly objective in our relationships with each other, and our surrounding reality. In our efforts to describe everything, we have lost touch with being at-one with our surroundings, and in a sense have all become a little unbalanced.

In order to find that missing part, we may need to rediscover what wholeness means. As a whole we have neglected our intuitive side. We need to learn how to get back in touch with our feelings and our sense of oneness, before we can become whole again.

Once we begin to recognize that there is a part of us that we have been denying, then we can make the choice to Change. The power which has been trapping us will become purified in our hearts, and raise us to our rightful position in the Circle. Only then can we begin to understand what it means to be standing at the Center of the Universe - Our Eternal Being.

But sometimes we can get stuck in the Pit of our own Iniquities.

I came to a large stone pit, and when I reached its center, everything suddenly became very still, and I could not move!

I began to sense danger, and realized I was totally surrounded by faces, faces that came out of the rocks, and formed a complete circle around me.

I could see faces that I knew from my Past - they all seemed to be demanding an explanation.

Slowly, I began to realize that I could never move out of my Circle, unless I first talked to each face.

So, I began to talk, and as I went around the Circle explaining why I did what I did - each face slowly sank back into stone - and disappeared.

When I came to the last stone, I saw that it was different. It was a giant frog, and it shouted "jump, jump, you are free now."

We live in a Circle, in order to keep the Circle clean, will require a degree of Confession from every one of us.